You two have been talking for a long time. She loves telling you all about her life, all the unnecessary details, and those silly things she made up to fill the narrative oversights that life commits while unfolding.
The windows are open and the lights have been switched off. The few rays that manage to come in get lost behind her hair and you have difficulty in figuring out the details of her face. You are lost. Everybody around has forgotten you and you are lost.
There are a million thoughts in your mind and you canâ€™t concentrate because you are listening to her. She doesnâ€™t want you to think of anything. She doesnâ€™t want you to think of anything else.
You gather the courage and kiss her cheeks. She doesnâ€™t stop talking about her boring friends. You kiss her neck where you feel her skin to be the warmest, and she doesnâ€™t stop talking about her teachers. You touch her lips. She still doesnâ€™t stop talking about the stupid girl next door. Then you kiss her eyes, and everything stops abruptly. You feel the warmth of her body spreading through your own body and reaching your guts. She is tender and soft.
In that forgotten room surrounded by silence and light and darkness and a few human beings in the next room who never knew what it is to be young and kiss a girl, you believe you have been kissing her for ages and yet when overcome by the silence you remove your lips, you know it must have been for a few seconds, so touched you are by her unexpected silence. She resumes talking about that stupid bitch in her class at once.
You take a stroll on the roof together. It rains.
You feel there is something that needs to be said, or done, and you donâ€™t know what it is. Perhaps it is something she wants you to do. You feel worried.
In the meantime, she wonders what are you going to do to her that night.
She wants you to see her new dress, a pink one. She is happy being there with you. You take her hand in your hands and look at her unusually long fingers.
Long after she ceased loving, and long after you ceased knowing what it is to be young and kiss a girl, you know the both of youâ€™ll share an intimacy the reason for which she will not remember.
You feel sad and you look at her. She is so beautiful. You imagine what it would be like to hold her soft and tender little breasts in your hands.
You keep undressing her in your dreams but you are frustrated because you donâ€™t know what to do next. You want to know if sex means holding her breasts in you hands, but you are too shy to ask.
Then, one day, you discover all by yourself that you can do a lot more than just fiddling with her breasts, and you feel you have grown up.